Just an Ordinary Day

I'm not having a spectacular day, but those days are highly over rated. Days that are "worth talking about" can go either way. They are so extraordinarily good that you have to tell someone or they are horrible and you just need to get it off your chest. It's too much of a gamble to wait for something exciting to happen. Unfortunately, exciting is not always good. I think I'm learning to appreciate regular days. The days when nothing is out of the ordinary. The days when order, routine and familiarity seem to prevail. Today was one of those days and though there was a time when that may upset me, today they suit me just fine.

Never Satisfied

I've got a pretty ok job that I can't stand. It's ok in the fact that I can take care of my needs and maintain a good lifestyle, I just can't stand it because it's not what I want to do. So I decide after five years of just working, to go back to school. But low and behold, I hate school. I despise homework, the reading is horribly boring (for most of my courses), and I'm just not used to this anymore. This seems to be a pattern for me. I want it, I go get it, then I don't want it anymore. So now what happens? I go to college spend all this money and time to get the degree I want, so I can get the job I want and after the shower of blessings, I don't want it anymore. Is this what life is like on the wheel? Constantly reliving the cycle no matter what cage you're in? Is it determination, drive, lack of maturity or just never being satisfied? No matter what the case, when is enough enough?